my pessimistic rift

I thought I was a positive person undoubtly.

but As Dryden said I am a pessimistic person .

Contradiction ,inferiority complex, emotionnality,fatalism,choleric,unstrung,

unsubstantia ... ...

I think these things make everything worse at the end.

from family to friends, Happy ending seems a fantasy.

I have a bad relationship with my parents, even my favorite aunts thinks that i am too choleric.

I never have a good friends,because i am just too indifferent .

I can not bear a long time or long way friends.

I can not bear my friends have other good friends.I am a exclusive person.

I wrote article in English ,because i don't want people to understand.

I always know my problems.

sometimes i can be self-mockery.

I do believe that i am a staight-out person.

maybe my sincere is the only thing that is still my pride.